While praying, a sudden calmness took over me, and in a twinkle of an eye, the memory of the abuse incident of over 20 years came back and how my life had been messed up by that experience. Then a voice within said to me,” your pain will be used to heal others”, “I will use your pain to bring hope to others”, “you are broken but not destroyed”, “write this down.” I have written these as they came to me that night. And for the rest of the prayer, I kept saying, “Thank you, Lord.” I didn’t want to say too many things again so I don’t forget the words. I got home and immediately wrote those words down. All through that night, I was tossing in my bed because things were being revealed. So this was what the Apostle was talking about. I called and sent text messages to him in the days that followed, but he hasn’t shown up or made any efforts to know why I wanted to see him at the time of my writing this story. It was in my anxiety I reached out to Mummy Marie Anne “Blessing to Nations” to share my encounter and also seek guidance. She listened to my story and said it was something worth sharing. She said to me that God shows us mercy so that He can lead us to find mercy in Him.
God has shown me mercy in no small way, and by this revelation proven that he indeed has a plan with my life. The instrument of that plan being my PAIN. By this, God has taught me that everything that happens has a divine purpose, good or bad. We are just like raw materials in the process of birthing that purpose. Some of us get crushed, hurt, and maybe destroyed in the process but in the end, it is for his glory.
I don’t know what your pain or hurt is right now. It may be abuse experienced as a child or divorce, joblessness or rejection… whatever it is believe God for a purpose through it. Commit your life to God and demand of him to take glory in it. You may have deliberately messed it up or situations forced them to happen to you, gather them up, and take them to God who alone makes all things new. Today God has healed me and committed into my heart an assignment to use my pain to restore hope to others. You may have been broken but surely you are not destroyed (2 Corinthians 4:8-9).
If you suffered sexual abuse as a child and it has affected your life or if you know anyone who is finding it hard to navigate through normal life, whose relationships are suffering because of the burden of self-guilt, and those who have taken to an immoral life because they perceive sex is the only true meaning to their living and if you desire to heal so that you can enjoy the life God gave you, I assure you that it is possible and by the grace of God I am more than willing to help you find purpose and happiness for a fulfilled life. There is more to your life than the repercussions you have been forced to accept as normal. God loves you and has brought you restoration. Feel free to contact me through any of these mediums for prayer and counseling.
OKAFOR NDIDIAMAKA (Nigeria) / +234 806 887 9555 / ndyokafor@gmail.com
